What A Day!

Thursday, July 30, 2009
I took half day off today and decided to go to somewhere breezy and not so crowded.

To do some reading and thinking.

Shopping mall and Coffee Bean were not in my option list today because I intend to go for somewhere low budget and for once I wanted to be a nature person!

Therefore, after lunch and ice cream with Abs and Wern, I drove myself to Penang Hill.

The moment I stepped into the waiting room for cable car, I wish I was in Coffee Bean. Man, there're so many people in there! Nowadays people still visit Penang Hill?




I went to David Brown so I can have valid excuse to order my favourite scone!


I heard sound from this pond. It must be the fish!


My love. My favourite scone :)



Just plain me (I was wearing white skirt therefore plain. I can be colourful at times too, like marron me or mustard yellow me!) with my book.

I have started reading this Sophie's World since like 5 years ago, and I am still reading now. No, I am not slow reader. I think I am more to "The Thinker" now, and I find this book is very much interesting than last time. Last time I was more to a "Dreamer".

Okay, still pretty much a dreamer now.

The truth is, I did fall asleep after few pages. Blame on the weather. It was too breezy and merry with birds chirping. I still hate birds, but I can tell these are friendly birds from the sound they made.

Awww... I was so obsessed with them and was like snaping every angle of these flowers!!


I can't see Penang from here. Blame on the hazily weather.



Not much changes on Penag Hill. Still the same old stalls selling same old stuff.

The weather was freaking cold and I thought it's time to leave since I have spent 2 and the half hours for only 30 pages reading, very random and scattered thinking, 20 minutes scone eating and tea sipping. Most of the time contributed to the forty winks!

The 6.15pm train has delayed. And after half an hour waiting, the person in charge came to us and told us something gone wrong with the cable and thus the cable car was not moving. I think I heard he mentioend broken cable!

THE TRAIN IS NOT MOVING AND IT TAKES FUCKING 2 OR 3 HOURS TO REPAIR!!!

Everyone gone wild!

Not me though, because I continue with photo-taking calmly and happily, still.



Spot the difference? It's the before and after when the cable-car-broken-news was announced.

So, we gotta took the jeep down. One jeep can only accommodate about 8 people and it takes about 20 minutes to go down. There're 300 plus people waiting to go down, with a limited numbers of jeep only.

I don't know how to count with my limited fingers and toes. But I know it sure took forever to wait!

I started to panic.

WHEN WOULD BE MY TURN?!

The guy said they will send people off according to their arrival time, namely FIFO. Phew!

People were sent off in jeep.
People waiting for thier turn.

Yay! It's finally my turn after the long and dreadful waiting.

I was the only one that did not tag along with any friends or family, therefore I was arranged to sit beside the driver.

No need to squeeze like a tomato red bean in the can though.

I see jealousy faces outside the jeep!

"Encik, jeep ini akan sampai dekat tempat cable car ar?" I asked the driver with my very broken Malay.

"Bukan, turun dekat Waterfall, lebih cepat."

Apa? Waterfall? But I parked my car at the tempat cable car!

"Har! Bukan tempat cable car meh?" "Don't worry, bas akan bawa kamu balik ke cable car sana."

Ooooh!

"Bas sudah di Waterfall ar?" "Ya"

Well, I might as well walk back to my house from Waterfall, afterall it takes only 15 minutes. And it's going to take forever to reach the tempat cable car (Air Itam) since it's the jam-iest time now.

Not my day.

Finally, the bus reached the tempat cable car.


And then I spotted something interesting. As if what I had gone through just now was not interesting enough.

Reporters with flashing cameras waiting right in front of the bus!!!


Damn! This's so ugly! I wish I do not have to go down from the bus!

Frankly, I am so not used to flashing cameras without red carpets lor!


What an unfortunate yet interesting day.

 
9:56 PM

Half Decade

Sunday, July 26, 2009

already.

I still could not tell if you are the one, or if this is ought to last.

Things seemed to be perfectly ordinary lately. Such peaceful.

Shouldn't that always the case before the storm strike?

We have been through too much heaven, and too much hell. I think I know what's going to happen pretty well.

A long ride.

A long rocky ride.

A long rocky yet humdrum ride.

I am so fucking desperately wanted to fall in love deeply again.

Please do me a favour.

 
4:21 AM

I Am Happy

Friday night outing turned out to be fun.

Large cup of caramel macchiato, laughters all the way out from my heart, bitchy gossips, entertaining buddies, lotsa tease, and a bite on Ramli burger.

I had them all in a night.

Too much laughters with an empty stomach does no good to me though.

Now, I yearn for beer. Lotsa buckets of beer at Sunset Bistro.

Beer to replace caramel macchiato. The rest remains.

Any time?

 
4:07 AM

缅怀

Friday, July 24, 2009

今天,莫名其妙地好想你。

虽然是我远离你在先,可是毕竟我们也在一起十五年了。从认识至接触至熟悉彼此的存在至渐渐的疏远,少说也有二十年了。把你完全放得下,还不容易呢!有时也会谴责自己怎么当初没有极力把你挽留,那今天我们又可以在一起了。

是我不好,有你在的时候,我并没有好好的善待你。很多时候,都把你遗弃在一边,让你受尽委屈了。是我冷落了你!现在的我,好想补赏一切却没有机会了。

每一次我把双手放在你身上,都可以很熟悉的寻找下一个正确位置。每一次的抚摸,虽谈不上天上人间的悦耳,可也不至于刺耳。原来我们曾经如此合拍过!

好想你。非要到了失去时才懂得珍惜。

对不起,亲爱的钢琴。

我真的好想你。

 
5:51 PM

Update as of 23rd July

Thursday, July 23, 2009
  1. Work is about stressful, dreadful, and soon to be demotivated.
  2. Friends and buddies and Abs are about busy mode.
  3. Pets are about to complain my ignorance to them.
  4. Life is about dull and sluggish.
  5. Love is about deteriorating.
  6. Me is about doomed.
  7. Sex is about nothing.
 
1:51 AM

惑 (180709)

惑 (huò)
1. 疑惑 be puzzled
2.蛊惑 delude


我开始辨不清真伪了。
角色几时开始对换了?
应该只是一场游戏吧?
切实的感觉也是假的?
剩下些什么是真实的?
应该终止这一切了吗?
 
12:07 AM

陷 (170709)

Wednesday, July 22, 2009
陷 (xiàn)
1. 陷阱 trap
2. 过失 fault
3. 沉入 bogged down
4. 凹进 sink
5. 卷入 get involved


坠入这一场游戏,虽然还不至于无法自拔,恐怕也接近泥足深陷了。

泥足深陷和无法自拔,仅是严重程度的分别吗?

暧昧,是难以抗拒的诱惑。

就算是深陷,我也不顾一切。
 
11:29 PM

It's Never Too Late

Tuesday, July 21, 2009
will never work for me, especially in love concern.

What's never too late? How late is never too late? Who decide it is never too late?

Late is late.

It's already too late, darling.

Bad timing I would say.
 
6:20 PM

怯 (160709)

Sunday, July 19, 2009

怯 (qiè)
1. 胆小; 懦弱 cowardly; timid
2. 虚弱 weak
3. 害怕; 畏惧 be afraid


现在的心情,就像小学生犯了错一样,忐忑不安。畏惧真相被揭露的那一刻,可是又无法预计那一刻的到来。不一样的是,必须承担的惩罚并不只是摊开手掌狠狠的被打一顿那么简单。

必须付出的代价,我可以看得到。可是,即将造成的伤害和打击,并不在于我所能想象的范围以内。

我是真的怯了。可是,与怯一起来的,竟然是欢。

无助与彷徨的淹没,让我更想要重复犯错。

 
11:46 PM

^^

Loitering the mall after lunch as usual. A fairly tall lady with 3 inches heels walked by us.

"See! People so tall mah si wear high heels." Fiona said.

I looked at her with puzzle headed. I mean, I do wear high heels and I am not short too. So?

"So?" I asked carefully, doubting if she used the word "mah si" correctly.

"So TCC mah si can wear mah!" she replied.

OOOOOH, TCC!


Yes, apparently the word "mah si" was used correctly.

I almost forgot we used to convince her to wear heels >2 inches. Then, she insisted not to because of her 173cm (or taller) height. Million times.

"Oh... Ya lor! She can wear also mah! But she everything mah si kia si eh!"

Fiona and I giggled.

I paused, then. Realizing I shouldn't laugh at her because I ain't any better.

"But hor, wa mah si kia si." I whispered to Fiona diffidently.

This time, Fiona looked at me with puzzle headed.

"Because hor, some large size people wear bikinis but I also not dare mah." I confessed.

More giggles.


Definition
TCC = A 173cm (or taller) female creature with uniquely strange characters. Immutable and stubborn.
mah si = also
kia = afraid
wa = I
 
10:55 PM

I Heart Picnic

Date ~ 27th Sep 2008
Venue ~ 20 km away from town
Dress Code ~ Nice hats
Attendees ~ 8 of us
Weather ~ Cheerful
Noise pollution ~ Severe

Going to start picnic!


Food. Ovbiously.


Very obviously again, people started to eat food. A stray dog keeping his eyes behind us hoping for a treat.


Fun came after food.


Spot the melancholy one!


Melancholy one was "scribbling" the sand.


I think she was trying to save the ants.


Everyone was having fun, so do us. Photo-taking is fun.

I don't know what was everyone doing. But I was snaping photo.

Look at that criminal smile! The couple was trying to bury Fiona's slippers.

The victory smile! Fiona's slippers were defeated underneath.

Pardon me for the unpleasant scenery.
The barely seen cleavage, I mean. *:P*


I think he was trying to pay respect to Fiona's slippers, still.

The contrast. :P

Watering the heart, hoping for money popping out.

Bunny. ^^


War started. Get ready to run.

Orchestrating the strategy to beat the males.

Ended with wound, sweat, dirts, fatigue, left over food, fun and memories.

Preparing to leave the place.

This was one of the those days that I'm missing.
Picnic again, people?
 
1:15 PM

Crawling Out

I have written a post pertaining above subject.

I am not ready to publish the post though.

Not yet.
 
12:15 PM

Thank You!

Monday, July 06, 2009




You have seen and accepted me at my ugliest,
yet, you uncovered and appreciated me at my finest.

Laughter and tears, blessings and curses,
who can tell how much we'd go through these years.

The uncountable heartaches that I caused you,
never stop you from giving without excuse.

I could never say enough thank you!
 
12:24 AM

A Piece of Me

Sunday, July 05, 2009
Too much of the scramble thoughts.
Too much of the sensible contemplation.
Too much of the live-in-own-world fantasy.
Too much of the harsh reality.

And now... I couldn't tell apart which part of me is real and existent.

I am lost in my many random thoughts. Abysmally.
 
7:32 PM

Falling. Not Rising.

Friday, July 03, 2009
A walk at the park.
A movie in the weekend.
A slothful evening at home.
A weekend getaway from the hassle.
A work out in the morning follow by abundance breakfast.
A pillow talk.
A romantic evening.

An impromptu meet up.
The one day trip.
The fishing.
The crab-catching along the beach.
The attempt on new things.
The cuddling on the couch and TV-watching.

All the above, I could afford them on my own.

But when it comes to the with-you-together part, they are way too luxury even to just flit through my mind.


I know I have gave my pledge that,
I will be more understanding and adaptive to the changes.
I will not be fussy and overacting of what we are today.
I will not be remindful of what we used to be.

I am just in a nostalgic mode today. I desperately wanted to go through the falling-deep-in-love-feeling again. For once.


* I am sorry *


 
4:55 PM

执迷不悔

爱情已宣布死亡但我们还依然在一起,
这跟植物人瘫痪在床上活着有分别吗?

植物人靠气管延续生命,
我们又拿什么维系感情?

不执著,又谈何容易?
手放开,又该如何唱?

撇开一切永远消失在你面前,我还没能办得到。

请原谅我的懦弱。
 
12:29 AM

Lost In Skepticism

Thursday, July 02, 2009
Please tell me, how do I ...

expect you to give when you can't show a mere apology?

know if you still care when you are callous towards my tears?

have faith in us when you act like your obsession has faded?

foresee future together when we don't even share a present?

plant the kiss when I couldn't even locate your lips?

make plans when you seldom show up in our plans?

suppose to spell trust when it comes to me like a dust?

walk to the blossomy path when I am stuck in the quandary?

prove my judgement right when all you do is turn aside?

know if this is not the end when none of us is going to bend?



It is all make believe, isn't it?

And how long can this make believe last?

I love you is painless to pronounce, but pain to perform.


30th Jun Update
I had the worst dinner at the nicest Hainamese food.
* sardonic *

My tears said,
"I will never return to that place with you anymore."

My mouth said,
all the grudging and hatred words to larrup you.

My head said,
"I will never fuel up my tummy with a furious temper."


My heart said,
"what has I done wrong to withstand this torment."

I said, "have we both learnt a lesson?"


 
11:52 PM

Fat is Fact




Fat is fact.

Yes, we are aware of that already.

 
6:04 PM

The Magic Alphabets

Well... the car plate number certainly looks better with a Toyota Celica.



Like this... Aaaaaaawwwwwwww :)


* giggle *

 
4:53 PM